Sadie Blog
An ongoing stream of relevant found sources for written and visual reference around my character Sadie.
Febuary 29th ...

Internet Archive

Downstairs - Frank Gregory , 2021.
American,b. 1962 -
Oil on canvas , 22 x 16 in.

Unknown - Lennart Olausson , 1989.
Swedish, b.1944 -
Etching , 29 x 18 cm. Ed. 91/100 .
Febuary 28th ...

Anke Feuchtenberger. sourced : dominocomicbooks


Febuary 23rd ...

‘The hug is a petal that envelopes history’
2023
Zhang Yidan (Instagram



source: crudmeridian

Dolly Dollar, 1980.
Photographed by Heinz Browers.

Paul Emile Bécat

2005
Source: flic.kr

source: capturingdisney

source: marilyn-romy-brigitte

source: ferrralit

source: mayonezli

Internet Archive


source: aaaangel444

Geese - Hasse Andersson
Swedish , 1926-2003
Lithograph , 40 x 36 cm. Ed. 16/300
December 1st ...

- Shirley Jackson, We Have Always Lived in the Castle






source : ryebreadgf

Source Unknown

dream one: the bush garden, margaret atwood





PT. I | pt. II

Adonis, tr. Khaled Mattawa from, “Body.” [ID in alt text]

‘The hug is a petal that envelopes history’
2023
Zhang Yidan (Instagram)

(Credit: Arnold Genthe/Library Of Congress)


Guillotine, Eduardo C. Corral

November 22nd ...

artist : feuchtenbergerowa

artist : catehueston

Red Colored Elegy by Seiichi Hayashi



Donald Barthelme


The Morning Visitor (1967) Dino Buzzati

Umberto Eco, On Ugliness

Illustration from “A Tale of a Girl Who Kills the World” by Nishioka Brosis
Source: 50wattsbooks.com

Casey Jex Smith (American,b.1976)
After Thaw, 2022
colored pencil and pencil on paper



sourced : itnerlude

sourced : altcomics



其實原本這篇是要講關於「看著別人的背影」離去與道別的故事。後來修改成了一個看著身邊人來來去去卻再也沒辦法踏入新關係的故事。
寫故事有趣之處就是在製造一個情境,提供想像力與共鳴。雖然絕大部分的故事都和我有關,但也不是全部都是「事實」。
sourced: komatsuyuko


Vladimir Kochunov, 1960s.
August 14th ...

Feathered Friend, 2016
Charcoal on Paper

Sourced: blametheory




David A. Hardy. Sourced :70sscifiart

Bonsai #4031, 2019
silver gelatin print

sourced: firstlawcedarprairie

Lilac, 1900


Thinking of someone who has drawn botanical paintings #1, 2022
Acrylic on canvas

Sourced: https://www.tumblr.com/lamignonette

David Hockney
July 6th...

Orfayo. Sourced : https://teddypdf.tumblr.com/

The high beam - Hanno Karlhuber, 1995.
German, b.1946-
Oil and tempera on hardboard, 70 x 80 cm.

Tomáš Rasl, Pond
Bromoil


Steven Mayer
The Green Room, 2019
Acrylic and medium on panel

July 4th...


Lou Andreas-Salomé, You Alone Are Real to Me: Remembering Rainer Maria Rilke (1927), translated by Angela von der Lippe

Forfeiting My Mystique, Kaveh Akbar, in '100 Queer Poems, an anthology' (2022)

Simone Weil on projection and how to lose your object with grace. From “Void and Compensation”

A viperine water snake (Natrix maura) crosses the water in Spain
by Charles Sharp


Source: nordicsublime


from Autopsy by Donte Collins

Source: crunchythursdaychild

Artwork by Katsuji Matsumoto

Dylan Trigg, The Thing: A Phenomenology of Horror

Lullaby
It is a summer evening. The yellow moths sag against the locked screens and the faded curtains suck over the window sills and from another building a goat calls in his dreams. This is the TV parlor in the best ward at Bedlam. The night nurse is passing out the evening pills. She walks on two erasers, padding by us one by one.My sleeping pill is white. It is a splendid pearl; it floats me out of myself, my stung skin as alien as a loose bolt of cloth. I will ignore the bed. I am linen on a shelf. Let the others moan in secret; let each lost butterfly go home. Old woolen head, take me like a yellow moth while the goat calls hush-a-bye.
- Anne Sexton

Kees van Dongen and Tsuguharu Foujita In front of their painting, Woman Holding a Cat, 1929

Bee Balm - Kerry Simmons
American , b. 1976
Oil , acrylic



As I Was Moving Ahead Occasionally I Saw Brief Glimpses of Beauty (2000) dir. Jonas Mekas

Sourced : johnsonshelby1

Vintage Rare PY / Miyao Spotted Pony S&P Shakers - Green Letter Japan



Cæsiliæ
I will meet you there, 2018
Oil on canvas






Unknown, Comets from the Augsburg Book of Miraculous Signs, 1552
Later published as The Book of Miracles
Wikimedia

Swedish , 1908-1971
Pastel , 38 x 46 cm.

Ludmila Jiřincová
June 11th ...

Evelyn Waugh, from Brideshead Revisited (1945)

sourced : m0lekyl111


Anke Feuchtenberger


Anke Feuchtenberger.

Anke Feuchtenberger

Sourced : vukky

Kathe Kollwitz.


















Tadanori Yokoo, drawings for Genka (“Illusory Flowers”), by Harumi Setouchi, 1974

Franchesca Woodman.




— Paul Guest, from “1987.”



Glimmering, Zhu Hong

sourced : zoomar

The end of poetry by Ada Limón

sourced : tony-camaro

Samira Abbassy (Iranian, b. 1965)
Self Censorship, 2020
Charcoal on paper


Milo Manara. Dessin.

Sven Löfberg, 1931, Sweden.



- Shirley Jackson, We Have Always Lived in the Castle



Christina Ramberg, Untitled (Women Covering Head), ca. 1968



Albert York 1960s. sourced : nobrashfestivity

Планы на день…… sourced : markv5

sourced : 71002milk

sourec : uimss

the Suwannee river in florida, 1949

Rebekah Rubalcava - I don’t know what’s good for me, 2023
May 11th ...

Chester Arnold (American, b. 1952)
I Have Not Been As Others Were, 2015
Oil on panel

Edna St. Vincent Millay, from “Afternoon on a Hill,” Collected Poems

Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/qskdlsjd-blog/88960866812

louise bourgeois


Sourced : jemmagoals

Jayne Mansfield

Carole Landis
April 26th ...


Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/another.hidden.society/
April 23rd ...

Austrian, 1858-1926
Oil on cardboard framed , 34 x 44.5 cm

gaston casimir saint pierre
April 20th ...

Hajime Sawatari: Tao (2007)

Nicole Dollanganger visits Jayne Mansfield, 2019

Untitled (Hands with clouds and house), 1989

April 19th ...


Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/photozombiejim/

Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/another.hidden.society/

Vintage Avon purfume bottle.
April 16th ...

Source unkown.


Jacek Yerka (Polish, b. 1952)
Wind of History


Marjorie Cameron : “Portrait of Jack”

Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/t.archivist/

by : https://www.instagram.com/thankyousatellite/


April 14th .

Cinerella and Fairy Godmother.

Mount Eerie : Lost Wisdom album artwork

Harlem, Langston Hughes

Joy Williams, ‘Charity’, from The Visiting Privilege: New and Collected Stories

maría ramos

neotenous-agency

Fyodor Dostoyevsky // Alanis Morissette



1/3. Jonathan W. Marshall, Traumatic Dances of "the Non-Self": Bodily Incoherence and the Hysterical Archive
2. Table of hysterical gestures (1885); Harvard Medical Library

Mary Wigman, Dance of Suffering (1930)

Robert Rauschenberg, Pegasus

Silly Symphony - Flowers and Trees (1932)


From Childhood's Hour, I Have Not Been As Others Were, 2017
Oil on panel


Kathy Acker, Blood and Guts in High School, 1984.

Angel from Pinnochio
April 13th ...



Suzhou River (Lou Ye, 2000)









A non-narrative cine-essay that collaboratively explores the potentials for trans-feminine representation in film. Multi-format. 14 mins.
April 8th ...

Sourced : poeticpicturism

Ayatori, 2015
Grapite on paper


Gordon Louis Mortensen, 1938-
Reduction woodcut print artist
American

Valentino - Spring 1995 Couture




The Milky Way (Rudolf Ising, 1940)


Jan Ormerod. Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics

Scott Longo. Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics

Jim Woodring. Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics

Drawings by Friedrich Engels. Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics

Sourced : verytiny
April 7th ...

Hazel Brooks by Peter Stackpole, 1948

Cosmic Juice by Aya Takano

Alain de Botton

Sourced : mousegirlheart

photo by carly rabalais
31st of March ...



Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/waspbittengirl/ .

Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/prettynormajeane/
““I live here all alone with my snowball, my little white poodle – he was given to me by my dear old friend Frank Sinatra. I call him Maf.” Marilyn Monroe on Maf.
Maf was a gift from Frank Sinatra gave Marilyn. Frank had purchased the dog from Natalie Wood’s mother. Marilyn named the dog Mafia Honey, as a humorous reference to Sinatra’s alleged connection with the mafia.
Maf would tend to sleep on the expensive white beaver coat of Marilyn’s, that was gifted to her from Arthur Miller.
—In these collection of photos you can see personal photos of Maf taken by Marilyn herself! And also a dog license of Marilyn’s about Maf, and one of his toys he played with.
After Marilyn passed away, Maf was inherited by Frank Sinatra’s secretary, Gloria Lovell. Although Maf didn’t live much longer after Marilyn passed, he unfortunately was run over and passed away on the 8th of August, 1974.
In the first photo, Marilyn is photographed with her snowball and with James Haspiel, (a fan and friend of Marilyn’s) in 1961.”
29th of March...



Source : christiandiorhypnoticpoison

. Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics

Amelie von Wulffen. Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics


“6 years old, an abstract dream, 1998“. Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics

Nuie. https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics





ken lum. Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/altcomics

Stefan Lorant. Sourced at : altcomics

Jan Ormerod. Sourced at : altcomics







Anna Koak. Sourced at : altcomics

Martin Salter, Weston-Super-Mare, North Somerset, 2021


Sourced at : https://www.tumblr.com/aaaangel444/712963635771736064

キリン助 さん

Arisa Odawara /
Makeup, 2014
Watercolors, pencil on paper
25,5 x 18 cm
https://www.instagram.com/elegieenbleu/

Unknown couple on the beach 1930′s. Sourced : through-a-historic-lens





Colin Wilson - Lucky

Messengers - Inari Krohn , 2023.
Finnish, b. 1945-
Aquatint


Soucred : https://www.instagram.com/thewaitingroompress/

Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/nimity.online/

Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/sylviapilled/

28th March ...



A.K. MacDonald, 1932 Sourced : https://www.instagram.com/another.hidden.society/

Ballerinas sourced at : ellevon
27th of March ...

Nicole Kidman’s wedding (to Keith Urban)
Black Spruce, 1994
Oil On Panel


Courtney Love as a ballerina.
23rd of March ...

Sourced : https://www.tumblr.com/thatbitchsimone
22nd of March ...

Patrick Bienert HAPPY SPRINGS

MATTHIAS GROEBEL , Painted Faces. Broadcast Material 1989–2006



MATTHIAS BRUNNER , Magnificent Obsessions Saved My Life



TIANE DOAN NA CHAMPASSAK , Paris – Hollywood
“In this subtle sequel of his rearrangement of the Thai adult magazine “Siam’s Guy”, Tiane Doan na Champassak revisits a number of issues from the iconic magazine “Paris-Hollywood”, launched in France in the 1940s. In the middle
of its pages, the original magazine had the particularity of offering pin-ups in relief or on tracing paper that the readers could undress. By using his extensive arsenal of postmodern tools, Doan na Champassak cannibalizes the original content with his own photographs, creating a hypnotic dialogue between then and now, recto-verso, dressed-undressed, Bangkok-Paris, Paris-Hollywood. In addition, the alternation between censoring the genitalia and hiding the identity adds a thought-provoking rhythm to the whole.“

Andrew Wyeth
Christina's World
1948“Set in the stark landscape of coastal Maine, Christina’s World depicts a young woman seen from behind, wearing a pink dress and lying in a grassy field. Although she appears to be in a position of repose, her torso, propped on her arms, is strangely alert; her silhouette is tense, almost frozen, giving the impression that she is fixed to the ground. She stares at a distant farmhouse and a group of outbuildings, ancient and grayed in harmony with the dry grass and overcast sky.
Wyeth’s neighbor Anna Christina Olson inspired the composition, which is one of four paintings by Wyeth in which she appears. As a young girl, Olson developed a degenerative muscle condition—possibly polio—that left her unable to walk. She refused to use a wheelchair, preferring to crawl, as depicted here, using her arms to drag her lower body along. “The challenge to me,” Wyeth explained, “was to do justice to her extraordinary conquest of a life which most people would consider hopeless.”
The high level of detail Wyeth gave to every object in his paintings encourages intense inspection, but his titles reveal the inner significance of their outwardly straightforward subjects. The title Christina’s World, courtesy of Wyeth’s wife, indicates that the painting is more a psychological landscape than a portrait, a portrayal of a state of mind rather than a place.“
Image and text found at https://www.moma.org/collection/works/78455


Dad slide found on Tumblr.

Renell Medrano
21st of March ...

Lana Del Rey found on Tumblr.

Unicorn necklace found on Tumblr.

From Memphis State’s 1966 yearbook.

Found on Tumblr.


Found on Tumblr

Miranda Byk (American,b.1994)
Absence, 2021
Oil On Canvas
19th of March ...

Leonard Cohen to Marianne Ihlen (edited).

buttons from the busy beaver button museum

16th of March ...

Source Unknown.

The Spring Fairy by Jacues Wagrez


The Milk-Eyed Mender, Joanna Newsom (2004)

Liu Yin - A Kiss, 2022

“Hazel Newcomb holding Jimmy“
circa 1910s

Charms

幻想文学 第36号 特集 悪魔のいる文学誌 幻想文学出版局

Anaïs Nin, from “The diary of Anaïs Nin, vol. 3: 1939-1944”

Yoshimasa Tsuchiya

Alphonse Inoue

Source Unknown


Source Unkown

Found on Tumblr


My darling sweetheart,
You and you and you;
always.


Source Unkown.

Diana Dors, 1958 in Tread Softly Stranger

Sketches by George Cruikshank, 1851

Drew Barrymore
20th of January ...



Stefan Żechowski (Polish, 1912 - 1984) https://pl.wikipedia.org/Stefan_Żechowski

edible bedtime stories for nonexistent persons - ghost owl attic
18th of January ...

Sea Nymph, Paula Rego, 1978.

Sarah Kircsh - Wintermusik



June Jordan - Newport Jazz Festival

Source Unkown.

Marilyn Monroe.
17th of January ...
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Sourced exhobravo.






Repeat Offender by Penny Goring.

Extract of Please Make me Love You by Penny Goring.

Christmas tree Source Unkown.

厄瓜多的天蠶蛾

Paz de la Huerta - Jalouse by Olivier Zahm, December 2008
9th of December ...



Sourced : jemappellemappelle

To live with oneself first means: no wine
Print A3
Ai generated images based on a tensorflow python program generated text based on all the writing in my Google drive from 2017- present.
Three alter egos and some pickled herring.
Print A3
Ai generated images based on a tensorflow python program generated text based on all the writing in my Google drive from 2017- present.
Three alter egos and some pickled herring.

Louka Butzbach, La Pièce Imaginaire - page 5 (detail), 2020
Watercolor and ink on paper
12,4 x 20 cm
6th of December ...



Ernt Lubitsch’s Nonotchka starring Greta Garbo, sourced https://www.instagram.com/p/BsbTd_Ql_2l/?next=%2F&hl=en
5th of December ...

Source Unknown.
My dream from last night...
Me, Kirsten and Carys moved into a hotel and I had a room on the ground floor. My room and it had all glass walls and many doors. X and I were in bed together, He took off his hat and he had these long strands of hair like Gollum from Lord of The Rings. I pretended I liked it even though it repulsed me. We fell asleep in bed together and I woke up in the middle of the night, All the doors in my room which lead to the street were wide open. I was terrifed and confused. I felt violated and exposed. The night was dark outside the open doors and the glass walls. I felt the terror of the night, I had the night terrors . Yellow street lights cast shadows on the walls. I shut the doors and went to sleep, and when I woke up inside my dream I couldn’t remember wether I had dreamed waking up and seeing the open doors or if it had really happened.





Care Bares sourced https://www.instagram.com/exhobravo/?next=%2F&hl=en
4th of December ...

3rd of December 2022 ...

Sourced : @knivesandravens on instagram
A few notes...
My sweet sweet boy, take me back to this day.
The pain of humilliation.
Sadie’s vomit room / The Desperate Kingdom of Love.
There was God inside her bithday cake and there was God in the touch of her mothers warm hand on her shoulder. She focused on the soft glow of the tiny flames, in the dark kitchen, in the big house. Yellow in the blue dark. Her parents singing in the dark.
When she was little Sadie slept with open eyes. She dreamed wonderful dreams, of knights and dragons, of castle gardens full of blooming lillies and roses, of a frog prince and her, the beautiful princess, all grown up. All grown up and beautiful. They appeared like puppets before her face in the dark. Her own secret place to inhabit that she’d been haunting since birth. On the night of her seventh birthday, she dreamed the most vivid dream of them all. She dreamed a tower, which climbed high into the sky, high above the hills. Inside the tower was a long spiral staricase. At the top of the tower was a circular room, and inside was a girl, who was her. The girl was half child half woman. She 21 and grown up, but she was not grown up beautiful, and she was not grown up properly. She was sick and in pain and trapped and alone. The sky outside of the only small window was always grey. She had to strain her neck and stand on her tip toes to see the ground below.
2nd of December 2022 ....

The Desperate Kingdom of Love lyrics by PJ Harvey

Silver Dagger lyrics by by Joan Baez

Marilyn Monroe, source unkown

Writer unkown. Sourced ar https://www.instagram.com/waspbittengirl/?next=%2F&hl=en
1st of December 2022 ...
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Standing Female Nude 1860-61 found at : https://archive.org/details/mma_standing_female_nude_266459


Left - meisho, netsuke of three rabbits with red eyes, mid-19th century, ivory and coral. Right - Roman figurine of boar, made of amber. Object dated back to I-II century CE.


Female figure photo found at : https://www.instagram.com/photosobscura/
30th of November 2022 ...
A collection of found fragments from the past few months.



Svetlana Lunkina and her coach, Ekaterina Maximova, in rehearsal at the Bolshoi
.

Hajime Sawatari’s Alice series

Photo sourced @exhobravo on instagram

Edward Hopper’s ‘interior (model reading)’, 1925

Jessica gives me a chill pill
by Angie Sijun Lou
full text avalible here : https://www.muzzlemagazine.com/angie-sijun-lou.html

Michelle Roberts the midgit cat : https://www.instagram.com/widgetthemidget2020/?next=%2F&hl=en


Source Unknown.
"As I grew older I knew I was different from other children because there were no kisses or promises in my life. I often felt lonely and wanted to die. I would try to cheer myself up with daydreams."
-Marilyn Monroe.
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By Meredith Martinez “ When I say Love “
photos by karen coshof, from the book the haunted dollhouse by terry berger


Source Unkown.


Dancing dress, source unkown. Ice cream sundae, source unknown.


Left - A young Grace Kelly, at the balcony of the Barbizon Hotel's hall (second from right). New York, photo c. 1949. Right - Unknown Source unknown.

Source unkown.

Rita Hayworth.



Left - Dottie Sykes by Bunny Yeager Naples, Florida 1959
Right - Sue De Beer

Cindy Sherman, Film Still


Left - Rosalind Fox Solomon, Blind Girl with Dolls, South Africa, 1990. Right - source unknown.


Left - Marilyn Monroe photographed by Andre De Dienes, 1946. Right - Ada Limón, The Carrying.

Midsummer, 1952, Sweden.

Mary Oliver, "Little Crazy Love Song." Blue Horses




Scenes from the 1933 version of Alice in the Wonderland.
Sadie in Wonderland

Source unkown.

Religious propoganda.

March, Mary Oliver.